How far can I stray?

I read a quote today that aptly described what my mind has been grappling with over for some time now: “Spirituality means you don’t try to find explanations for your nonsense - you are willing to face it” – Sadhguru hah there he said it! The trivia of life that we try to control and let control are indeed nonsense – something that doesn’t make any absolute sense, but is still a part of our existence. My question thus far has been, how much of it makes up my life? How much of it am I engrossed in? Partly? Fully? You understand my dilemma – now I am trying to seek answers, and make amends. There are always people in each and everyone’s life that strike a special cord – people who command a higher degree of acceptance. I have been fortunate to connect to one such person through Facebook.  And merely reading a few lines from what she had shared made me think! How much have I strayed from the path to understanding the real purpose of the time given to me on this earth? I know being responsible and being happy are sides of a coin, but the heart seems to yearn for more – more understanding, more answers, and subsequently more questions! I have not been connecting my dots as I went along life, merely being happy in the state I am, not questioning for once.  My blessings are in the form of my daughter and my husband and my lovely family, but the extent to which this fore would support me in my quest is something I have not tried to understand. Maybe I should start before the forest becomes too thick and I forget why I took that path in the first place J happy ending to this trigger point for now!

The fight or flee harmone is on a rampage today 'watch out' i heard my head cry...Phew what an end!~~~With each passing moment my heart raced. For completely different reasons - PG Wodehouse to entertain, the political issue at hand. To be or not to be! A million dollar question really! What is rightfully someone's has to be fought for? Not fair said my heart. But the true value of things sometimes comes to fore only with a good fight. And this was totally justified - Tellangana being given what was its due (for more than 60 years now)! And i have to admire, the way in which, students pulled this off, united and strong.

Together they proclaimed loud and clear

We are the roots

We give you wings

And we would not go quietly into the night

Or give up without a fight

Without us, you would ponder

If anything was worth it!"

Hats off to those guys who have labored hard for this fruit!

Good to ask rather than pass!

The Green Peace Calendar Sheet May 2009

Picture of a child in an unregulated backyard e-waste recycling unit

Protective clothing, None
Footwear, None
Toxicity levels, Risky
Workshop dust, High
Twinkle in the eye, High
Enthusiasm to earn the day’s wages, High

And here I am complaining about how my air conditioner didn’t cool well enough.

It was a slap of reality! All of us need these now and then. Does the kid even know of a world that exists beyond the workshop? Doubtful…

Lack of education, meager food, shabby shelters, sexual exploitation, broken hearts, broken lives – the worst thing, we pretend that this world doesn’t exist!

A struggle for some, easy for many

A good family
A steady source of income
Consistent love
Security
Respect for relationships
Being yourself

A tough struggle for some, easy for many!

It is good to be

A co-rider on the elevator
Might just need a had with his bags
It is good to ask rather than pass

A crying child
Might just need a hand
To bring his kite down
It is good to ask rather than pass

The old neighbor
Would lighten up with a game of chess
Costs time, but worth it
It is good to ask rather than pass

At the end of a tiring day
All it requires is a little bit of patience
To lighten up another person’s day with your smile
It is good to BE rather than just ask

To accept someone for being ‘different’
To understand that another’s ‘to be’ might not always be acceptable to us
To be the least judgmental
To live and let be
All it requires is a bend of the mind

Amen!

I give up trying to understand myself !!!

I give up trying to understand why my heart so cries?

The expectation of time
The joy of being
Why does my heart yearn so?

The mind sieved between
Thoughts that dominate
And tasks mundane
Seeks solace
In you
But it knows boundaries
And yet mourns over the other side!

To seek, to be sought
To give, to be given
To lose…To hold
To cry…To laugh
To play…To become
Why is it that I am torn?

At every step, there is expectation
Of newer moments to come
I tell myself, expect nothing o mind!
And even before the minute passes
Caresses the thought, so Now!

Thoughts once emptied
Return to taunt
Is it right to cry and belittle the NOW
Or heart, take things as they come? I give up trying to understand!

Why do we need to possess?

When someone asked me today playfully, what is it that your blog is about? That set me thinking…What actually is the blog about? I treat it more like a secret diary (to which not many have access to), and an empty white sheet on which I write to my heart’s content…maybe I should dedicate it to something or someone…something that stands majestically in spite of the onslaught it faces…something that lights up with just the slightest hint of merry…something that is as free as the breeze, uncontained and cool…full of life, and yet soft in its way of exposing it…something you would love to possess!
To question, a second nature
To seek, the next
In between what is questioned and what is sought lays a mighty expanse
Which in the mind seems to be a lesson that is waiting to be unlocked!
Amen J

Trust me, Life Isn’t!

Life isn’t short…it actually gives us everything we need to live if fully, though sometimes we are so occupied at looking at things receding that we fail to notice the blossoms of spring ahead. I always have believed that each day comes as an experience (it rather helps when you don’t want to get bogged down with all the emotional baggage that you might be weighed down with), bah…who needs that! But the tryst with a new kind of place, people, lives, culture is not in the least bit unnerving, but very interesting as this gives a much larger scope to get out of the small circle that we imagine being our world!
The wonder of the first kiss of spring (and the sneeze that accompanies it betcha)
The rush of the leaves spreading out in a flutter, music when you are your own company
The feeling of the climb becoming interesting, and guesses as to how that would be
The challenge of a mind that’s too potent, unbridled in passion
What else can be asked for in life? Eagan has given me a peep into many of these and I AM ENJOYING every moment of what I asked for to be mine!

It rocks!! Freezing cold too!!!

Eagan could be so much of fun, I knew it before I even landed here, but it would be this cold, boy! Tell me about it! Reaching office at 7:30 am one morning I thought we would be the very few folks walking in so early, but man! meetings were on full swing in most of the executive rooms!! Early birds i told myself. And I should tell about the people - it is the same old story everywhere, people all over the world remain the same, give or take a few permutations...here too the team is welcoming, warm, and FUN LOVING. Gives me a good encouragement to do things and challenge myself and once in a while funny to watch the sentence spoken zoom past you without being able to comprehend what was said and then to say - er pardon me, can you please repeat it again!!! Good times, and worthy of rememberance!!!