How far can I stray?

I read a quote today that aptly described what my mind has been grappling with over for some time now: “Spirituality means you don’t try to find explanations for your nonsense - you are willing to face it” – Sadhguru hah there he said it! The trivia of life that we try to control and let control are indeed nonsense – something that doesn’t make any absolute sense, but is still a part of our existence. My question thus far has been, how much of it makes up my life? How much of it am I engrossed in? Partly? Fully? You understand my dilemma – now I am trying to seek answers, and make amends. There are always people in each and everyone’s life that strike a special cord – people who command a higher degree of acceptance. I have been fortunate to connect to one such person through Facebook.  And merely reading a few lines from what she had shared made me think! How much have I strayed from the path to understanding the real purpose of the time given to me on this earth? I know being responsible and being happy are sides of a coin, but the heart seems to yearn for more – more understanding, more answers, and subsequently more questions! I have not been connecting my dots as I went along life, merely being happy in the state I am, not questioning for once.  My blessings are in the form of my daughter and my husband and my lovely family, but the extent to which this fore would support me in my quest is something I have not tried to understand. Maybe I should start before the forest becomes too thick and I forget why I took that path in the first place J happy ending to this trigger point for now!